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Friday, 25 July 2008

A new page of life

Just skimming through the facebook and looking at the photos these 3 years of univeristy life...so much of joy and laughters.....
whatever knowlege learned will be fading with time one day; money earned will be used up one day; but memories with friends will never be forgotten in your life...
Other than friends I met, another gift from these 3 years is searching for the direction of life and understanding of myself.
What is the meaning of life? What are you looking for? What do you want to be? What do you like to be? What do you want to achieve? What is your short term goal and long term goal?
I think the meaning of life is to find happinness. Happiness can come from different sources and in different magnitude: money, friendship, lovers, sense of achievement, religion, etc, these factors are in spectrum. Lacking one can make you less satisfying. Just like investment profolio, different people have different combination and different choice of investments. It depends on the personalities and situational factors of individuals. For me, I am not a risky people, I need a lot of certainty and security. I don't like stressful life. I would like to have some personal time to do what I like to do...maybe art creation, reading of books or voluntary work...
I also know I am not as smart as other in mathematical and logical sense and I hate paper work. I will be more satisfying to invest more time on what I am good at and have potentials: I like to create plans and interact with people. This is more self-fulfilling. Moreover, I knew I am a patient person with kids (but not with adults, haha)..So I hope that being a teacher would suit me. Moreover, I think being a teacher can give advice and provide guidiance to the children which I would love to do this job. I would enjoy the time sitting together and chatting with them. It is a challenging, special and life-time job.....
When you are working, salary seems to be a symbol of competitive power. Higher salary implies higher prestige and ability. It was because when you get independent from your family, everything need money. What you eat, buy for clothes, save for the future use such as further study, buying house or for your family..all need money...of coz l want to earn high salry....but earning a lot of money is not my utimate goal...
I really want to do something helping other people...may be building a school in Cambodia, China...it is very good! Or publish story books....This is my dream.....or ensure my family have a quality of life...this is more short-term goal..
What is your strength? What is your weakness? What you want to improve? What you want to change?

Wednesday, 12 December 2007

愛是不保留】
詩集：盧永亨作品集 01 - 哼不完的歌，25

常聽說世界愛沒長久，哪裡會有愛無盡頭？
塵俗的愛只在乎曾擁有，一刻燦爛便要走！

而我卻確信愛是恆久，碰到了你已無別求：
無從解釋、不可說明的愛，千秋過後仍長存不朽！

誰人受痛苦被懸掛在木頭？至高的愛盡見於刺穿的手；
看！血在流反映愛沒保留，持續不死的愛到萬世不休！
惟求奉上生命全歸主所有，要將一切盡獻於我主的手；
我已決定今生再沒所求，惟望得主稱讚已足夠！

[ Unreserved Love ]
I've always been told love won't endure.
Nowhere can one find love long and true.
The world just thinks love comes and passes through.
"Don't make promise" is the rule...

But I still believe love can last long.
Your unfailing love has made me strong.
You are the one I can depend upon.
Come what may, you'll love me all along!

Who died on the cross and took away my curse?
Great is your love, I don't think I should deserve.
Your bleeding hands proved your love unreserved.
You're my only joy and treasure on the earth...

Giving everything to you is all I pray.
Use my life to serve you truly every day.
I'll hold your hands and give you all my praise.
Let the whole world know your love and grace!

An Unreserved Love

I've always been told love won't survive.

Promises will turn into lies

The world just thinks love comes and passes through.

It never lasts pure and true

But I still believe love can last.
It's your unfailing love that gives me rest
You were there when I needed you most
I'll never walk all alone!

On the cross you died and took away my curse?
Love so wondrous no one ever could deserve.
Your bleeding hands proved your love unreserved.
You're my freatest joy and treasure on the earth...

Make my life a fragrant offering I pray.
Help me Lord to serve you truly every day.
Through tears and joy I'll give you all my praise.
Let the whole world know your love and grace!
突然有好大0既感觸.........
一段感情, 當無0既時候又好想有;
當有0既時候, 又好驚會失去....
依個世界太過無常,
所有0野可以話變就變,
感情係, 性命係....可能係我係一個月參加0左兩個喪禮;
又不斷咁聽到好多感情上離離合合0既事啦.....
點解我要為沒有而喊,
要怕失去而喊,
無同有都係唔開心....
依一刻唔分, 唔確保將來唔分開,
到0左好老好老0既時候, 又要受生離死別0既痛苦....
點解咁多人放咁多心機咁多感情, 最後又變番零.....
你話只要信FOREVER 就會FOREVER,
係咪信就得0尼?
就好似信仰咁....?
唔知點解我對依個世界無MUD信心...........對自己沒有信心.....
個個人都講一套, 做又一套....
我覺得人好脆弱.....
意志啦....生命都係....我又想起有幾次好危急0既時候.....
有一次..好強烈..個種SUFFOCATE 0既感覺好強烈...好似如果再沒有人HELP 我開門....應該死0左....
話說我去0左做SPA(中0左THIRD PRIZE), 跟住SAUNA房度門卡住0左...我開極都開唔到度門....
跟住我放棄0左....去0左PRESS THE EMERGENCY BUTTON..但係一D反應都無...出面一個人都無.....我心入面想... 我會唔會死係半島HOTEL 度....我係入面STAY0左超過20分鐘.....開始CANNOT BREATH....好想快D有人經過..但係一個人都沒有.....好無助...但係最後....好DRAMATICALLY, 終於開到...
I don't know the reason why I open the door finally...so miracle....I just push it for so long time, so hard but can't open it... why?
then is I meet you....you asked me to see film.....I told many people, they tell me don't go....finally, I just went....
then we came together...so unbelievable...why?
Many many friends told me a lot of precautions towards this relationship...they are afraid of me being cheated ...
they told me if you can know me in this way, cannot ensure you can know another in this way again....
you said I have to trust you~
Actually, I just express my worries and feelings.....
Maybe it is a good sign that I am so in love with you so afriad of losing you....
when you are unhappy and worry, I will be unhaapy and worry....
I will trust you! And I should have faith in you and I...
Especially in myself....I am lacking of faith and confidence...
I felt guilty often....

Tuesday, 02 October 2007

          BE A BETTER PERSON
          It has been a long long time near 3 months not updating my xanga! There were so many things happened in these 3 months. I have been to Cambodia to have one month of life-experiencing and teaching in the village school. The trip was wonderful and reflective. I can say that it was a trip that I will never forget in my life. I learn, I see, I feel, I make a lot of real friends in the trip. Thank god to bring me such a unforgettable trip and bless my safety during the trip.
            After back from Cambodia, luck follows. So many good things happened on me. I successfully applied the internship for SPCA which I longed to work when I was very small; I got a third prize for a raffle of Arts Walks, which is enjoying a spa in Peninsula Hotel; and most luckiest thing is- I met you.
            I don't know why I am so lucky to have so many things. Sometimes, I just feel I am not deserved to have you, have so many good friends, to have so many happiness.  Nevertheless, I want to thank all of friends and I will put more effort to become a better person. Cherish what I had, thanks what I got~
           Thanks project SEE groupmates for bringing me such a wonderful trip; thanks chongmates being playmates and true friends of me, listen and chat with me; thanks secondary schoolmates: siu woo, veronica, josephine, chek man and chek ling, lingling, nuha always have deep sharing with me; especially thanks nuha and miss lam, thank you for your caring; thanks siu yin and carol, my closest classmates; thanks my roomate, Rosemary for having exciting life in 1113B; thanks to my another two roomates: gabby and winwin for supporting ; thanks winnie, ianian and pui-- you three are my best friends forever; thanks many other friends as well. Thanks my two big brothers: gary and Joseph for showing care to this little sister. Thanks King and Fa bring me so many happiness in the hall; thanks Martin for chatting with me. Thanks for your patience and forgiveness to this absent-minded person. Thank you for your reminder and advice! Finally, thanks you and thanks god.

Sunday, 10 June 2007

睇0左好多戲…….

1.      魔盜王 3
2.      生日快樂
3.      holidays
4.      太陽之歌
5.      gloomy Sunday
6.      closer
7.      愛作戰
8.      後備情人
9.      spiderman3
10. lake house

books reading….

Anne frank
在三十五歲前做的三十三件事

Waiting list….
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